Starting over

So I quit my job last month. After barely a year as a television journalist (don't have much regard for that breed now), I put in my papers and returned to my old job in print. And I happily add that I'm a happier person now.

No more excessive hours, late nights, squabbles with co-workers, bitching and "I can't get no satisfaction..." on repeat mode. On a break between jobs, I thought of all the things I'd finally have time for again: dinner dates with friends, books, sex, me time, movies, sleeping, shopping, theatre, finally buying my cat a collar.

But of course, I happily add that I still haven't done too many of those things. Not because I have a hectic work schedule at my newspaper (most days I breeze in and breeze out with a smug grin; love most people in my team), but because I'm extremely lazy. I think I'm slowly turning into my cat.

But on a more serious note, I think I'm turning into a professional wanderer. I seem to have developed the 'one-year itch'. Can't, or probably don't want to, stick to a job for more than 12 months. After the initial euphoria and excitement has died down, so does my interest in the work. Beyond a point, it stops challenging me. Then complacency sets in, then the urge to move kicks in. I plan a job switch months in advance, always looking out for a relatively better option (then again, how can it be better if I want to quit eventually?).

I live by the same funda when it comes to men too. Even before it's begun I know it's going to end. And that makes me strangely secure. It's as if my mind's been programmed to invest only a certain amount of emotions in my relationships so that it doesn't hurt when it ends. Sometimes I wonder if that's because I'm scared of getting hurt. But I don't think that true. I guess I'm just not the emotional sort. And when it starts to get too comfortable, I want out.

Is it a good thing or a bad thing? It is ok to do and feel what you want as long as no one's getting hurt? Or is it 'safer' to stick to a good job or a good man just because?