Monday, May 02, 2005

In good times and bad times...

What does one do when a relationship becomes complicated?

He's driving me crazy and I'm pretty sure I'm doing the same to him. I've never discussed and dissected a relationship so much, that I'm now beginning to wonder whether it's worth it. Is anything worth it?

Being with him should be effortless. Especially after all these years. But things are far from idyllic. I don't want to keep feeling bad because I think I'm hurting him or because he suddenly acts like a stranger. And I don't want to have to keep asking him not to do that. He certainly doesn't want me doing that. And yet we end up having the same argument time and time again.

It's like banging your head against a wall. The wall doesn't move, it doesn't even crack. You just end up hurting your head. But there has to be a way to salvage something that was once beautiful. I'm just scared that by the time we're done with all the hair-splitting, the beauty will be replaced with bitterness.

7 comments:

Srini said...

i think you need to go about your life ; kick him in the right place .... no offence but you cannot respect these kind of people and you cannot forgive these elements

R. said...

The great wall of china, as great and big as it was, didnt live up to what it was built for. Most walls end up being useless after a point in time. So are the ones that come up in a relationship. Ive come across a few of those myself, when i do, i think is this really a wall or is this my ego thats become way to big. Once i get an answer to this it helps me find a way forward. This was a very moving post, something most of us go through at some point in life, i hope things work out well.
Stay Cool. Cheers!

K said...

Drop in one must at times. Ah, relationships. you never know when they start falling apart do you, but sometimes inexoribly they just seem to unravel no matter how close the people involved once were. Anyway, gotta go grab lunch, we'll catch up some other time.

HazyColours said...

Title reminds me of a Led Zeppelin song from their debut album.."Good Times, Bad Times". Think they were attempting to capture some of the emotions

rushes said...

Like your prespective. Relationships are hard but I guess each one has to daw their own lines. Best of luck though with whatever you decide to do.

Shashi Iyer said...

Well let me try and picture your position... i think its like this- you put yourself in water, knowing, perfectly, that you caould drown, and whether or not you know how to swim, you want him to give you a hand and if he did you'd be happy. It's you who has decided to give him so much space in your life and only you can answer that question of yours, ".. is anything worth it?"

p.s. you write so beatifully and you wonderfully bring out all your emotions into words

unfuel the planet said...

well no one can be unresponsive to things like love... sooner or later the stone wall will melt like wax..